Tyler John Murray Smith

★ Tyler John Murray Smith ★
★ Born Asleep 12-12-2008 ★
♥ We Love You Loads Lil Man ♥

Sorry pictures removed due to a few fakes appearing on sands and dont feel safe having his pictures
up atm x

To my lil baby boy tyler, you were so precious to me, the day i found out i was pregnant with you,
mummy n daddy were so happy, who took u away from us? What happened? I wish i could find out all
these answers but i will never know til the day we meet in heaven. Theres never a day that goes by
where i think of you and wish for you to be here in my arms :(.
We only had 6 little weeks left until you were due.
Me and daddy are so proud of you lil man, you were so gorgeous, and we got to look after you for 2
precious days.
I was so proud when i gave birth to you, i got to do something for you, you were so little and
beautiful, 4lbs 4 and half ozs and 49cm long. Daddy washed and dressed you as i was worried i would
hurt you as you were so fragile, i enjoyed my cuddles from you i didnt want to put you down. Youve
made your grandparents so proud.
The day we had to say goodbye was the hardest, we didnt want to let you go, we wanted 2 take you
home and look after you forever, but we know that people up in heaven will look after you,
espicially auntie michelle, great papa jim, and great papa david, please take care our lil man.
We love you lil man, your always be remembered and in our hearts. LOVE YOU TYLER xXxXxXx

★ Tylers Story ★

The day you was taken away from us, we just couldnt understand how and why, you were active that
same day, kicking and moving normally. I was a bit poorly the day before, but i thought it was just
a bit of sickness, and if it wasnt for daddy getting me to go to hospital the next day because i had
a little bit of backache, then we wouldnt of known what had happened. When we got to the hospital we
got put into a room for an hour before getting seen and checked because the midwife was in a stress
because mummy couldnt produce a wee sample and i had only come up because of my backache, when she
felt my tummy it hurt, sent sharp pains down my sides, that worried me, and then when she put the
belt on my tummy and couldnt pick up your heartbeat, me and daddy knew instantly what had happened,
she disappeared and brung in a doctor with a scan and there you was on the screen, no heartbeat, i
jumped off the bed, crying, ran into daddys arms. Daddy rung nanny and granddad, they came straight
away.
We got sent home and told to come back the next morning to talk about giving birth to you. Next
morning we turnt up at 7:30am and they decided they would induce me the next day, so we stayed in
hospital and when the day came, they put 2 tablets in me and then another 4 every 6 hours. I was
getting little contractions but it wasnt until the friday morning they broke my waters at 3cm
dialated at 11:00am, by 12:30pm was when i started pushing, i was having pethadine, morphine and
gas&air. 44 minutes later at 13:14, you were bought into the world. It was a silent and very sad
moment, the midwife was even crying. Daddy cut your cord and the midwife wrapped you up and put you
in your little bed. Half an hour later i delivered the placenta, and then the family came in to see
you, you were so perfect little man. We got to look after you for 2 days, got to cuddle you, dress
you and have you to ourselves. Just wish it never had to be this way lil man. Take care sweetheart
and see you soon xXx

★ The Funeral ★

I hope on Tuesday 30th December 2008 mummy and daddy rest you at peace the way you like it, we wish
we never had to do this lil man, its breaking our hearts each day we miss you more and more, atleast
when your at rest we know where you are, and that your at peace. Love u xxxxxx

We've now had the funeral lil man, it was the most beautiful service, i am so proud it all went the
way mummy and daddy wanted it 2. It was so upsetting, to turn up and see your little coffin in the
car. Daddy was so strong, he carried you up to your grave and placed you down, everybody loved the
poem we chose for you. Daddy lowered you down into the ground, it upset him so much. You had so much
family and friends there to say thier goodbyes, scatter petals onto your coffin, so many flowers,
your so loved tyler. Everyone wore something blue for you lil man. Atleast i know where you are now
hunny, mummy and daddy will always be up to see you and check on you.

★ Your P/M Results ★

We had Tylers p/m meeting on 3rd February 2009 which came back with no reason on what had happened.
It slowly started kicking in that they had no answer, but i still couldnt take the fact my lil man
died for no reason.

A few months later i recieved a letter from my consultant explaining they had more results back and
it turns out that my poor lil man died from an umbilical cord accident, the cord was wrapped around
his neck 3 times, apparently pretty tight cutting off his oxygen supply and he died pretty
suddenly.

I was shocked to get these results but in a way its a relief to know what happened to my little boy
and that it was an accident and in my next pregnancy they will know what to keep an eye out for.
I just wish they done the special scan on me when pregnant with Tyler on the cord so they may of
been able to do something sooner.

I'm so sorry lil man that mummy couldnt keep you safe, its not your fault you were so active.

Love you forever xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

★♥ Here's the poem that was read out at your funeral ♥★

Fly, fly, little wing
Fly beyond imagining
The softest cloud, the whitest dove,
Upon the wind of heaven's love
Past the planets and the stars
Leave this lonely world of ours
Escape the sorrow and the pain
And fly again.

Fly, fly precious one
Your endless journey has begun
Take your gentle happiness
Far too beautiful for this
Cross over to the other shore
There is peace for evermore

Fly, fly do not fear,
Don't waste a breath, don't shed a tear
Your heart is pure, your soul is free.
Be on your way, don't wait for me,
Above the universe you'll climb
On beyond the hands of time.
The moon will rise, the sun will set
But we won't forget

Fly, fly little wing,
Fly where only angels sing.
Flyaway, the time is right,
Goodnight, my darling baby Tyler.
Go now, find the light.

★♥ Sleep tight lil man xXxXxXx ♥★